In the circle that I am a part of I find that there are many people that will not admit that they are having a hard time in this life. They will say phrases like “I am too blessed to be stressed” or “I am highly favored of the Lord” which are fine and dandy, but where’s the transparency? Where’s the authenticity? Where’s the honesty?
No one in their right mind is having a perfect day all of the time. There will never be a time where we have it all together and…that’s okay. We have to be okay with the fact that we don’t have it all together. If we did have it all together, what would be the point of Christ?
These past few months have been extremely difficult for me. I know for my family, it certainly hasn’t been all peaches and cream. However, for me, it has been a roller coaster of emotions and frankly, there are days that I am not okay. There are days that I get tired of hoping. There are moments that I simply don’t want to dream anymore because what’s the point? Too transparent?
Maybe I am a little too transparent. But until we get to the point that we are transparent with ourselves, we will keep trying to be okay…when we are not okay and that’s okay. Why? When we admit that we are not okay, that gives room for God to work.
“And He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.” Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me. Therefore I am well content with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ’s sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong.”
2 Corinthians 12:9-10 NASB
I have to remember this every day. When I am weak, He is stronger. When I am down, He lifts me up. When I feel broken, He puts all the pieces back together. When I want to give up, He gives me hope. When I want to cry, he dries up the tears.
You see, I am not okay. And you know what? That’s okay.