I found myself several years ago at a weird spot in my life. As busy as I can be as a father, student, and employee, I feel no guilt. Now, let me be clear. I don’t mean that I didn’t feel guilty before. When I first took my first class in college while being married, I felt tremendous guilt. My wife is a stay at home mom that doesn’t leave the house very often. Not that she doesn’t want to leave, but that she’d be crazy too with three kids underfoot where ever she goes. All under 8. Just Sayin’.
But when I would go to school, I would feel that I would be getting out of the house and a ticket from being at home with the kids. I didn’t believe that but I had that thought from time to time and then I would feel guilty. Then one day, I came across this;
“Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.”
If there is one thing that I know, Satan loves to make you feel guilty about anything. If I had not gone to school, I would feel guilty for bettering myself. If I go to school, I leave my wife and kids to fend for themselves, what kind of father am I? See how quickly that the enemy turns it around?
I used to feel guilty about everything. I struggled with this up until that point. I still have to fight it. I have to argue with the enemy and his tactic to feel guilty for doing anything other than what “I should be doing.”
I implore you to drop the guilt. It does your family no good to feel guilty. Sara caught Maleah at this point recently. Maleah is learning all kinds of great things this year in school. However, when she struggles, she apologizes. “I’m sorry..” If she messes up with a question, “I’m sorry…” Why are you sorry? Did you intentionally mess up the answer? No! Why are we as fathers feeling guilty either? Do we intentionally ignore our families?
Friend, I want to encourage you as a dad, do yourself a favor and drop the guilt. Move forward. Ask God for forgiveness if you have to. But move on. He’s ready for you too. Are you?